I am in hot pursuit of something I want so bad I am dropping my love of grammar in this sentence to express it. I want redemption, vindication, and wish fulfillment. I want to fly by the seat of my pants. I want to run fast and hard and get it done. I want to hit the 5k jackpot in my mind:
Not long ago, I thought the 5k was a royal waste of time and money. So short, not worth it. I ran 5ks with friends and family to kind of mosey along on a little joggy jog. But something changed in me in the last few months, and now I get it. It helped that I've started winning AG awards in my last two 5ks, and that kind of extrinsic validation turns out to suit my shallow side quite well. Yes, running is a beautiful practice and process, but I kind of like the brutality of the chase and the gratification of seeing my name in the top 3 for my age, even if there are only 6 people in my group**. It also turns out I'm more competitive than I thought.
And then there's my performance at the 5k a few weeks ago. I so wanted that 21 minutes on the clock, and I missed it by 9 seconds. I'm traveling back to Central PA for the long weekend***, but I found a 5k on Monday morning. I'm going to run that race like a bat outta hell, then get in the car for another 8-hour drive, hopefully with a shiny AG award, an overly inflated ego, and 3 sevens on my splits.
I'm particularly motivated because the race is in my old 'hood, where I went to high school and suffered the cliched gym class mortification of many adult runners. I need to unload that baggage, preferably in the first mile to help me run a negative split and meet my goal.
So, 21 minutes please. To go out and do what I need to do.
*and I'll give the extra tenth to the running Gods in however many seconds they require
**I have a theory of why I'm winning these awards in the small, short, local races. I am at the age that most women are having babies, so the fact that I have a 4-year-old puts me at a competitive advantage.
***and running long alone, so dear God, please prevent sketchy guy from finding me.